It kind of frightens me when people emotionally open up to me. It's like.. I am sulking deep down in this mighty ocean of my own traps, mistakes and mess.. And now they drag me into their own world.. of how they used to be.. of what they have gone through.. of the way their self has been hunted and broken.. The brutality!

     The stories haunt me. You can't see them the same way you used to see them before. You get random streaking vignettes of what people have done to you when you are shattered.. when you needed someone to listen to you.. and now you don't want to show even the slightest loose of attention when they speak to you. You get so conscious in being the healing they deserve.

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     In a way.. it breaks me to know that how many people are up with such tormenting memories, moments and stories within.. who struggle every night to pull themselves back together.. who has been left all alone, all of a sudden in this goddamn world.

     This vulnerability people show you is so seductive. And nothing moves me like the way people get serious.. tearing away all the positive masks we wear.. all the 'this is what life is', 'this is how life will be' consolations and broke once for all.. for the love they deserve.

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    I so want to hug them and say.. 'Listen! Patakha Guddi! You don't deserve to be this much worried and sensitive. Who made you so vulnerable? Who made you to think twice in trusting someone? It is just that you have come across people who don't know what you are.. Can you get back to me as the kid you used to be? I mean.. I kind of miss the happy kid I used to be! If you can assure me to be that kid again.. I don't know.. may be.. I may try to be the kid I used to be!" And lots of such stuffs.. That I can never express in real.. That I can never really utter.. They keep sounding deep within me like void, formless images.

      Like Veera says to Mahabir.. I feel like letting them know..

     "I can't change what you have gone through! I can't predict what's going to happen ahead. But this journey.. of being with you.. and listening to you.. I don't want this to end! ".